I don’t think I blogged about this, but I applied for an artistic grant a couple of months ago and have been waiting patiently every since.
First, I should say that 1) I’ve never completed a grant application before and 2) Louisiana is so FULL of talented artists it blows the mind. Therefore, while I applied, I wasn’t really wasn’t expecting to be chosen for the grant & while I gave it my all, I wasn’t one of the lucky 36 (out of 268).
So, no grant to help further my art this year. BUT…..let me say this. I NEVER would have even had a chance if I had not applied.
Yes, I opened myself up to the possibility of heartache the very moment I decided to apply, but I also opened myself up to the chance of succeeding. So, would I do this again? YES in a heart-beat. Why? Because you can’t win if you don’t try.
When Monday morning rolls around, I will be on the phone to the Louisiana Division of the Arts finding out exactly what the panelists had to say about my application. And the reason? Because I WILL TRY AGAIN. Yep, and again, and again, and again until I succeed. I want to know what I did that wasn’t up to par so I can correct my errors and increase my future chances of receiving a grant.
Yes, there will be those little bits of heartache when I lose, but the reward when (notice I did not say if?) I win will be worth it.